segunda-feira, 29 de outubro de 2012

Lets see what is new.

So, for news, I can say that I've:
Quit smoking.
 Been missing a lot of people.
 Been a vegetarian for the last month.
 Been a vegan for the last week or so. (found out no eggs mayo! *.*)
 Been doing exercise.
 Started Zen meditation (still figuring it out).
 Entered an Ecological group on my uni academic association.
 Started to take latin classes.
 Been studying a lot.
 Been very naughty :D

 I'm loving uni. Not really the uni part, or the people part, just the discover yourself part.
 Those are the years to change my life, forever. And I'm happy about it. :)

domingo, 21 de outubro de 2012

Academia

Era uma vez uma Serenata, um Cortejo, um Batismo e uma Latada.
- com (GM) Helena Pimenta e (GF) Hugo Bigorna.
Serenata. Debaixo da capa da Madrinha. Convivo de Arquitectura. Dormir em casa do Renato.
Cortejo. Diabo-Auto da Barca do Inferno. Foto de família.
Batismo. No Mondego, janta com a Madrinha.
Latada. Comer ruivo da P. Comer ruivo de Boston.

 Bem-vindo á vida na academia.

Finding out the truth...

Rowenna: "Can't believe you and joe got together!! That was bloodeh quick!"
 Really don't have much to say about it...
Joe got a girlfriend, Fi.
 Being betrayed feels very wrong.
 Why shit has to happen?
Many questions...
Trying not to think it over.

sábado, 13 de outubro de 2012

Updating

Hello folks!
What's up?
It has been a long time since I last wrote in here.
Let's update?
 Au-pairing in Germany is over.
The experience of parenthood was awesome.
Now I know a lot more about what means to be a couple and to have children.
I miss them all very much. And every time I see kids their ages, I remember them and smile. They are part of my past, part of me. With friends its the same thing. I miss everybody so much.
 I remember before doing this gap year, to feel saudades, and to think that it hurted a lot. Shit, that was a broken nail in comparison with the heart that is being pulled away from me every heartbeat that I'm away from them.
A couple of days ago, while showering, I became to know that one day, when I'm old, and everybody is gone, I'm going, literally, die from saudades. And it hurts hurts hurts. And I cry cry cry, remembering everybody in Friedrichshafen.
 I know that, that is life, that is how it works, how it is, nothing can be done.
You learn, you teach, you share and you miss.
And when you miss, it hurts.
And because of all that hurting, coming not only from all these saudades, I've been keeping myself occupied, but it is not easy not to think.
 One of those days, Jesse told me "...but I've been feeling... emotionally confused somehow. Shades and glimpses of different feelings that I have trouble giving names to..."
 In my case, I can name a few. Saudade. Inveja. Tristeza. Confusão.
 I even started to have those paraphernalia of thoughts that I used to have. Depression knocking on the door, and my saying "la la la, I can't hear you".

Não tenho vontadinha nenhuma de ser.